I try to be honest on my blog and also keep things upbeat. Here at the year end, I know this to be one of my most challenging years as a writer. I've tried things and found many that don't work. I haven't found many that do. I yearn with the depths of myself to say something that useful that will be of great help to many. I haven't found success. I wonder if this is what is like to wander in the desert? I hope that I find an oasis soon. I'm keeping the faith.
I have been grateful for my routine during this season of wandering. I cling to it. Write every day. Read every day. Take a walk every day. Do your chores. Do the shopping. Answer the emails. Cuddle the cats. Look for the moon. Watch the weather. There is something so beautiful and comforting to me about routine of my days. The sum of these moments are my life.
I think that routine is what I love about writing. Writing is walking an ancient path. I'm searching for the touchstones of story. There is magic in this journey. I rejoice when I find a touchstone. The first touchstone is the moment everything changes. My hands shake and my stomach does flip flops when I find this moment. It doesn't matter if I wrote the story or if someone else did.
Finding the touchstones of story is like skipping across a creek from stone to stone. I looking for the call to adventure, the turning point, the darkest moment and the climax and all the wonderful touchstone in between. These are the defining stones of who we are and what we want. It is my desire to find a pathway that connects with readers. So much so I cry when I think about it. I don't know how to describe this ache within me. Many believe that I will find my way. I have no words for my gratefulness for the support.
As I journey on, I keep in mind that each sucky moment is what leads to lovely ones. Wherever you are on your creative journey, keep going. This unseen place that you feel is ahead, you will find it. This story that is brewing within, it will appear. Just don't stop.
I will be back next week with more Gifts.
Here is the doodle. Tossing out my Star Wars: "Patience, you must have."
Life is like an onion. You peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep. Carl Sandburg