Saturday, December 28, 2013

Soul Inspiration -- Mom

Hi folks, the week marks the twelfth year since my mother, Lera Lee Kelly Barlow, passed away from early-onset Alzheimer's disease. She was 61 years old and had suffered for over a decade. If you long for a cure for this disease and want to donate to a worthy cause before the end of the year, here is the donation link to the Alzheimer's Foundation of America. 

Mom was a free spirit. She was a person of visions. Here is a bit out of her journal:

A totem is given, not chosen. And mine was given by God for his purpose. No one of this society would deliberately chose the turkey vulture for a totem.  Egyptians considered vultures holy, but we think them untouchables.

Three times God has given me visions of the vultures. visions whose meanings are clear to me. Once I saw them slicing down a cold north wind on a sun-bleached winter day. When they slowed, the wind would catch at their tails, and they would loop-the-loop. I wonder which one found this trick. Looked like fun.

The other vision I was given twice. Mainly because even now, I look away from the meaning of it. The vultures were swarming in the sky like bees, hundreds of them. There was one who held back. A reasonable thing to do considering how poorly vultures fly. They were flying into each other all the time and falling down out of the sky. It looked scary to me. At last, the one who held back got the courage to enter the melee. I cheered him on. Then, he was gone. When he entered the circle of life, he could no longer be distinguished from the others.

The first vision means I should get out on the winds of life and enjoy life. Even if it is scary, it is great fun. The second, I can make a decision. I can stay an individual and out of it, or I can join the circle of life and be one, no longer different, no longer alone.

Hard decisions for me. Vultures were given to me for a totem. Like them, I don't fly well and it takes me a long time to get up and it's difficult,  but once I make it, then I can soar for a very long time.

I hope you find your totem like Mom and it tells you what you need to hear. It feels good in my soul to remember all that she was.

Here is Mom and Dad with my older sister Lee in the spring of 1962.


Here is a detail of one of mom's paintings from when she was a teen.

 
One last quote for your pocket.
 
Always something new to learn. Lera Lee Kelly Barlow. 

8 comments:

Leandra Wallace said...

A wonderful tribute to your mom- 61 is still so young. I wish she could have had more time & been unburdened of such a terrible disease. *hugs*

MollyMom103 said...

Hi Leandra, she was way too young. I appreciate the hug.

Trudi Trueit said...

Having lost my mom a month ago, I am amazed at how many memories of all the lovely ways she touched my life keep coming back. I know that is her spirit reminding me that she still and forever remains in my heart. Thank you, Molly, for sharing a bit of your mom's incredible and inspiring legacy. Now I can carry her in my heart, too.

Mirka Breen said...

My heart soared, reading your mother's notes.
She was lovely.

MollyMom103 said...

Hi Trudi, I'm glad you are keeping memories of your mother close. I know what you mean, I feel my mother's spirit nearby all the time. Thank you for dropping by. I did so want to share some of her creative spirit.

MollyMom103 said...

Hi Mirka, I'm happy to introduce you and send you soaring.

Janet Lee Carey said...

Thanks for this great post on your mother. I enjoyed reading clips from her journal about her totem. I can see where your writing talent came from, Molly

MollyMom103 said...

Hi Janet, she certainly could spin words and I'm glad I got a little of that spin.